Manifesting Magic: How surrendering gave me power

I have been spending some time in Spain this holiday season, visiting my family and getting reacquainted with a part of me that I always had a deep connection with until the last few years.

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When we first talked about this trip, I wanted nothing to do with it. I was in my own place, digesting personal revelations and thinking about traveling to a place that might stir up more emotions was something I didn’t have time for. Or the heart for it. So I responded with, “I’ll see.” Any excuse I came up with wasn’t good enough to get me out of this trip, because I would be excluding myself further than I already had within my family nucleus. Something I know is emotional and growth suicide.

Instead, I gave myself time to work through what I was feeling, knowing that this trip would be something different for my spiritual growth, but I had to go with a clear mind, open understanding of the world around me, and a guided heart. It wasn’t easy. It was confusing.

I resisted. I fought it. I surrendered to it. 

They say we’re living new times, and I resonate with that. Despite my resistance, this inner understanding sparked, giving life to this awesome truth I needed to discover. My path in life stopped being jagged and became a straight road to something I am still uncovering. All I knew was that I needed to go. I needed to explore. I needed to allow myself to be guided by a force greater than the fear of my ego.

So I booked my flight, leaving 10 days earlier than planned, to embark on this journey of digging deeper into my roots. No. Deeper than that. To my core. My very essence. Once I go within to that place, I will know where this road I recently started walking on will lead—a clarity I’m craving.

I want to live where the fairies are. 

The magic I’ve always felt in the forest has seeped into my skin. The sacredness I’ve always known surrounds me when I’m here has manifested itself. I came 10 days earlier for the purpose of discovering what my soul is urging me to. I came for the peace this place has always offered my being. I came for the connection to earth mother, away from the congestion of the city. Pure energy in one of the purest places I’ve visited.

My search continues as I’m here. I take in every message. I admire the beauty of this land I chose to live in. I’m reminded of the majesty of our earth mother as I pause to admire her beauty.

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I seek guidance from the sun to light this sometimes foggy path, and I appreciate the night fog to give thanks for the present moment I’m living.

The changes around us are occurring. The world and our energies are shifting. Instead of resisting—like I did with this trip—if we allow the emotions to flow through us without grasping on to them or attempting to control them, we will understand the lessons in our every day life. We will be grateful for the role each person has in our life. Our views and perception of people and situations will shift with the mere opening of compassion and removal of judgment.

I’m ready for the next step. I stand, openly surrendering, so that I may live my purpose. For that is the reason I’m here, and it’s no longer time for me to prolong living out that purpose. It’s time I stand with courage, like the mountains I’ve always been fond of, withstanding the storms and offering to the world what I came here to do.

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Manifesting Dreams & Surrendering Control

It’s been a trying few months. It has been the kind of months where I thought, It can’t get worse than this, and then it would. Or I’d perceive it that way. I’d perceive life as a constant fight I couldn’t win. I was getting hit from all sides, hard hits, soft hits, painful hits. All of them from the past, present, and future. The mind controlling me in the most painful way possible—I wasn’t enough.

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When I’m feeling this way, I write. I write a word or I write ten thousand words. Anything to release what is in me—pain, sadness, resentment. I’m a student of life. I learn as I go, and I experience triggers. I experience obstacles because that is how we learn. At times it’s easy to forget that we are still learning when we are in the role of guide, or coach in my case. But we are. We are all constantly learning and growing. We evolve with each morning we wake up to and rise with each night we lay our heads to rest.

With challenging months, I was forced to face so many things in my life (some I was aware of and chose to ignore, and others I’m still figuring out). I was stuck in that same pattern, stuck on repeat like a song you don’t like but can’t stop humming, when I came across a reminder. “I am” affirmations. As a life coach, I teach clients to work with positive intentions in the present moment to build belief and manifest desires. The key to intentions is the combination of belief and want. When I saw a post about “I am” intentions, I was taken back to the advice I give others.

Why is it we never take our own advice?

This post reopened my eyes. I know this. I know what to do when my vibrations are low and my beliefs are crap. I decided to start working my own intentions. In the morning, mid-day, afternoon, you name it and I was affirming. I believed them. I expressed beliefs I was confident about. I am still doing it. Every chance I get I take a few seconds to mentally say my affirmations. I take a few minutes to write them down in my journal.

I felt as my mind started to calm, my soul relax. Peace entered me as I said goodbye to the constant torment I was struggling with. All of a sudden, the things I was worrying about became minimal as I made the conscious choice to live in the present, feel each breath that filled me, and spend more time with people.

It’s amazing what we can do when we make choices to look at things from a positive perspective and be present. That post I came across was exactly what I needed. I needed that gentle reminder that I can have what I want if I release control and allow the process of life to happen. I can manifest what I desire when I surrender the mind and love freely. I continue my daily intentions and breathing. I continue to trust in the grandness of the universe and know that each experience is one for me to learn from. If I resist it, the lesson will continue to hit me until I accept it and grow. If I choose to learn the lesson the first time, I will move through my journey a little lighter and wiser.

At the end of the day, I want to lay my head to rest, grateful for the gifts I’ve received (even those unanswered prayers, are gifts as well). The universe knows what we need. Our higher self knows what we need. It will feed our souls, and it is up to us to grasp those lessons and surrender to something greater than this human experience.


Examples of “I am” affirmations. We each add what we want to set as our intention.

I am healthy.

I am abundant.

I am a successful writer (insert your career).

I am at the perfect weight/size for my body.

I am beautiful.

I am in harmony.

I am in a loving and respectful relationship.