Another year is closing, and it’s always a time of reflecting. So much happens in a short time, even more in 365 days.
I think back to the optimism I had for 2016 and how different it turned out than I had imagined. I was a naive girl with stars in her eyes with the idea I had for this year. Some days I want to send 2016 you know where, but other days—like today—I reflect on what I learned. Because all we can do with challenges is learn from them. That’s the purpose. My resolutions are the same as last year, especially to be unapologetically me. Keep on speaking my truth without shying away, wondering what people will think of me. Because that naive girl with stars in her eyes knows there’s something amazing coming.
I know that in order to get to the great, I must travel through the difficult. And really, it’s only difficult if I say it is. If I look at things with bitterness and resentment, I’ll hate myself and those who have wronged me. I want compassion and love in my life, therefore, I will approach each experience with that.
I know 2016 is one of those years people are anxious to see gone, and I get it. Trust me. But I say we look back and see how we have grown. Instead of focusing on the bad, look inwardly at the good. It’s a year of transitions and endings. (Yay to endings so we can get to new adventures!)
It has been a challenging year for me emotionally. Lord knows I was tested—by my own doing. I kept adding to my own inner turmoil because sometimes it’s easier to be the victim. Let’s be real, who really wants to look within and deal with pain? I sure didn’t. Not when it was my truth. I preferred to pretend instead of accepting what was. But I finally did. Thank goodness for that because I felt the pressure building in my chest ease a little with each breath of hope I took, and continue to take.
Now, when I see social media stamped everywhere with comments about ending 2016 because it just plain sucked, I roll my eyes a little bit. Yeah, I’m that person. I roll my eyes because we are creating this for ourselves. We are creating the drama and hatred by focusing on it. I am not blind (or unrealistically optimistic) to how different this year was, but I am learning.
I am learning to let go of that because what we put our energy into is what we will continue to attract. Law of attraction. So now I look back at 2016 with a different understanding. One that shows me it was a year of learning and growth. A year to release old habits and admit old patterns. A year of breathing each day and trying to stay balanced because some days that was all we could do. Hope we can stand on our own two feet without tipping over. If we don’t do this, we’ll just stay stuck in the same cycle (no matter what year it is). Because what happens in our lives is about us. Though energies surround us, we have a choice. We have free will to decide if it will master us, or we will master it.
And even though it challenged me in ways I never thought it would, I am coming out of it a little stronger and wiser. More aware of my life and what I’ve experienced so that I can heal.
So as someone taught me this year, let’s stop being victims and start being victorious.