Manifesting Dreams & Surrendering Control

It’s been a trying few months. It has been the kind of months where I thought, It can’t get worse than this, and then it would. Or I’d perceive it that way. I’d perceive life as a constant fight I couldn’t win. I was getting hit from all sides, hard hits, soft hits, painful hits. All of them from the past, present, and future. The mind controlling me in the most painful way possible—I wasn’t enough.

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When I’m feeling this way, I write. I write a word or I write ten thousand words. Anything to release what is in me—pain, sadness, resentment. I’m a student of life. I learn as I go, and I experience triggers. I experience obstacles because that is how we learn. At times it’s easy to forget that we are still learning when we are in the role of guide, or coach in my case. But we are. We are all constantly learning and growing. We evolve with each morning we wake up to and rise with each night we lay our heads to rest.

With challenging months, I was forced to face so many things in my life (some I was aware of and chose to ignore, and others I’m still figuring out). I was stuck in that same pattern, stuck on repeat like a song you don’t like but can’t stop humming, when I came across a reminder. “I am” affirmations. As a life coach, I teach clients to work with positive intentions in the present moment to build belief and manifest desires. The key to intentions is the combination of belief and want. When I saw a post about “I am” intentions, I was taken back to the advice I give others.

Why is it we never take our own advice?

This post reopened my eyes. I know this. I know what to do when my vibrations are low and my beliefs are crap. I decided to start working my own intentions. In the morning, mid-day, afternoon, you name it and I was affirming. I believed them. I expressed beliefs I was confident about. I am still doing it. Every chance I get I take a few seconds to mentally say my affirmations. I take a few minutes to write them down in my journal.

I felt as my mind started to calm, my soul relax. Peace entered me as I said goodbye to the constant torment I was struggling with. All of a sudden, the things I was worrying about became minimal as I made the conscious choice to live in the present, feel each breath that filled me, and spend more time with people.

It’s amazing what we can do when we make choices to look at things from a positive perspective and be present. That post I came across was exactly what I needed. I needed that gentle reminder that I can have what I want if I release control and allow the process of life to happen. I can manifest what I desire when I surrender the mind and love freely. I continue my daily intentions and breathing. I continue to trust in the grandness of the universe and know that each experience is one for me to learn from. If I resist it, the lesson will continue to hit me until I accept it and grow. If I choose to learn the lesson the first time, I will move through my journey a little lighter and wiser.

At the end of the day, I want to lay my head to rest, grateful for the gifts I’ve received (even those unanswered prayers, are gifts as well). The universe knows what we need. Our higher self knows what we need. It will feed our souls, and it is up to us to grasp those lessons and surrender to something greater than this human experience.


Examples of “I am” affirmations. We each add what we want to set as our intention.

I am healthy.

I am abundant.

I am a successful writer (insert your career).

I am at the perfect weight/size for my body.

I am beautiful.

I am in harmony.

I am in a loving and respectful relationship.